Pissed off and a Feminist!

I've been looking for another job because my current employer refuses to pay me a decent wage. I think the writing's on the wall when they hire someone to be an accounting assistant who has never even had an office job before and they pay them a higher base salary than yours, and you've been a loyal employee for over 3 years. They've also been taking away the bonuses I depend on for much of my salary.

So far since I've sent out my resume, I've interviewed 3 times, twice at the same place. Both places turned me down with the same excuse: we need someone with more experience. I've tried to get hired at title companies before and unless you've actually worked at one before or own one it's damn near impossible to get a job at title company. I'm stumped at why title companies are such rarefied places to work; I clean up after them everyday. They obviously don't hire people who can read closing instructions or answer emails.

Both women who interviewed me told me all through each interview that I was "the perfect candidate for this job" and "you have exactly the qualifications we've been looking for for this position". So why didn't they hire me? I was told by one woman, who had told me that her previous employee (a woman in her 60s) had had a stroke and she didn't want to walk into her office and find her slumped over her keyboard again, that I wasn't "experienced enough" even though she told me otherwise earlier. Who did she hire? A woman in her 60s!

The second woman, who called me "perfect" and "just who she'd been looking for" said she hired someone for a "front-end assistant". Apparently, I was perfect for a "back end assistant", i.e. one who doesn't look good enough to meet with clients but can rustle papers in a hidden away cubicle. My current boss won't pay me what I'm worth, but he's not interested in the slightest about what I look like, other than I don't wear jeans except on Fridays. He only cares that I do my job well and I do. My only sin in his eyes is that I'm not male and I don't keep my mouth shut, therefore I don't deserve to get paid well.

Is this what feminism has come down to? Women won't hire you because you don't look like a model and men are still pissed that you're not at home barefoot and pregnant, so they won't pay you a fraction of what they'd pay a man for the same job? Unless of course, you DO look like a model and your pay mysteriously goes up commensurate with your level of attractiveness?

I get outraged when I hear younger women say that they're not feminists. Then in my eyes, they should be at home, pregnant, and they'd better fucking have dinner on the table when their man gets home at 6 or get a good beating. A woman not being a feminist is the stupidest fucking thing I've EVER heard. Being a feminist doesn't mean that you hate men. It just means that you think women deserve equal status (and equal pay) to men. In my opinion, women are equal to men. PERIOD.

I find it painfully depressing that young girls nowadays find it so easy to post pictures of themselves naked or scantily clad on the internet, or to fag it up before the camera, ala Girls Gone Wild. They're going to get a rough awakening one day 5 or so years down the line when they graduate and go looking for a job. Their prospective boss will Google their names and what do you think will pop up? "Oh, I was just a kid when I did that!" "Oh, I was drunk, I didn't know what I was doing!". Yeah, I wanna hire you, baby! I'm still wondering when this great "lesbian awakening" happened; when I was a teen or even in my 20s, I didn't want to make out or even kiss another girl. I have no problem with genuine lesbians, just the wannabes.

It's not only the girls that do stoopid shit either, not by any means. One of our LOs, a young guy in his early 20s showed me his MySpace page one day, which consisted of pics of him drinking, getting drunk, being drunk or passed out. I mentioned that he might not want to show his supervisor that webpage and he thought I was being alarmist. He told me later that he had changed it because he "was older now". ROFL

I'm still going to try to find another job. I have to. I can't afford this one anymore. On that note, I've joined Weight Watchers. I don't know what else I can do. I need more money and I guess I'll have to look better to get another job. At my age, being a good and loyal employee who knows their business isn't good enough anymore. That's really frightening to me.